A few weeks ago, I was getting ready for church, when I received an impression I believed was God. I sensed he wanted me leave my jewelry off that morning. I did not really understand why but I started taking off my jewelry when I got to the last thing my wedding ring I sensed he wanted me to leave it on my finger. That was such a strange impression from God I asked him why he would want me to leave my jewelry off. He said my jewelry was not a problem with him, but he wanted to use that as a sign because I had accepted things into my life as normal that displeased him. He would not tell me exactly what it was but he definitely had my attention.
Each piece of my jewelry meant something to me or reminded me of some part of the history of my life. However, ever since the day he spoke to me it was like there was something he wanted me to discover about myself. I do not want my actions to displease God but I was not in any kind of known sin, I live my life as close as I can to God’s word. I am sure there was something there but it was not obvious to me. I have found when God does not give you an impression you have his written word that he will reveal himself through.
Last week I came to the fifty fifth chapter of Psalms in my studies. I bet I have read this verse over a thousand times in the past thirty years. However, this was like the first time because my eyes opened to see the verse like never before. I do not know if you have had that experience or not but it is something else when God reveals a verse to you. What God impressed to me a few weeks ago suddenly came back as I was studying this chapter in Psalms. I have had a problem over the years, with self-condemnation, anxiety and depression. It had gotten so uncontrollable that I talked to my doctor and he put me on Paxil to help with the symptoms. I stayed on the drug for several years but I got tired of not being able to feel things, so I decided to quit taking the drug. It was good to begin to feel again, but I also had to deal with correcting my thought life. I had asked the Lord to help me by giving me some type of flag before I let my thoughts take me to condemnation, anxiety or depression. God honored my prayer and snapped me to attention when I started letting my thoughts drift off toward areas I did not want to go.
It was apparent after reading the fifty fifth chapter of Psalms that God wanted me to pray and ask that he would remove or destroy the negative thought patterns and give me a new way of thinking.
Psalms 55: 1-3 Listen to my prayer, O God, do not ignore my plea; hear me and answer me. My thoughts trouble me and I am distraught at the voice of the enemy, at the stares of the wicked; for they bring down suffering upon me and revile me in their anger.
As I read these verses, I realized the enemy David was referring to was his thoughts. It was not a real enemy; David is referring to the inward thoughts and perceptions of his own mind. In the next few verses, he discusses the possibility of running away to deal with his problem but he decides in verses twelve through fourteen that he cannot hide from himself. In verses 16 through twenty, we find David calling out to God to afflict his enemies and destroy the ones with no fear of God. David is talking about his own thoughts not a person. I pondered on these verses for a while and remembered in Revelations John wrote that God would destroy the earth and send a New Jerusalem out of Heaven. It seems that God is not as interested in giving us a work around or refurbishing us. What he wants to do is destroy the things in us that are displeasing to him and give us something new in its place. How much God is able to do in us is totally up to us as we ask him to destroy the thought patterns that keep us from walking in all he has for us. He will be faithful to his word and release to us life in abundance. The last few verses of Psalms Fifty Five
“Cast your cares on the Lord and he will sustain you; he will never let the righteous fall. But you, O God, will bring down the wicked into the pit of corruption; bloodthirsty and deceitful men will not live out half their days. But as for me, I trust in you.”
I pray for you that you will join in and put your trust in the Lord. Even when he is dealing with me on very hard issues, I never feel condemned or unloved. He has proven to me in so many ways that he is trustworthy.
God Bless You